Don't play with it

Convo with a friend...

shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
that it does
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
indeed...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
i just realized that very little takes permanence in my life today
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm..?
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
except for my parents and family members that i keep close... everything else but goes through a revolving door of hello-goodbyes
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
but none that i regret and whilst the wave of nostalgia does settle... it is not so severe to hold me to run back into the past...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
does that make sense?
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
is there something wrong with me?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm..
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i believe you're asking the wrong person.....
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
it's a general opinion question
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
cause i am broken as well....
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
and my statements are open ended as well
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
a friend of mine was telling me that you could figure out what personality traits you want in a partner by looking at those friendships closest to you
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
but... all the friends I've had have all been incredibly unique and individual
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
and all of them... leave eventually or left... and the novelty of the friendship faded.. but the memory of it hasn't
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
do you understand? does it make sense?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm..
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i understand...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
therefore.. the question is.. are we truly inherently broken... or are we so perfectly independent that it's those that surround us we fix and send back into this world?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i think...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i am not certain...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
but you agree in the value of the question?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
indeed...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
i often conceded that perhaps i'm supposed to go through life solitary to some extent... i work best alone
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
heh...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
in every sense of the word.. therefore i'm a lone soldier... therefore i am weird...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
odd...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
for man is supposed to be a social being...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
right?
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
you think i'm odd?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
no....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i think it .. odd i was pondering the last two statements you made troughout the week....
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
are you serious? wow...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
we are ment to be social creatures indeed...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
but...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
yet it seems we are such a contradiction to that norm...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
even though we crave the need for a social bond... we somehow can not attain it... or...we can not keep it...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
yes.. yess...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
that's it
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
it's hard to think you are like me...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
but is it that we cannot attain it.. or we just haven't those we're meant to keep...?
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
it's hard to think you are like me too...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm....
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
my lit teacher at college oft said that not to worry... when the people meant to stay in your life come .. they will stay... all the others will fade
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
it sounds about right....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
but often we don't see the ones who are meant to stay...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
often we cast our eyes elsewhere....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
looking for something else...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
but we should trust that on the most primal level our instincts shall recognize the importance of the individual.. and feel compelled to keep them in our lives
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
for it has kicked in.. with the wrong people.. so why not the right one?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
heh...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
indeed...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
then..according to your words.. the trick is to accept what we have regardless of the feeling that there's suppsoed to me much...much.. much... more
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
one can do that i suppose...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i am not certain of what should realy be done though....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
for i am stuck on the same road as you...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
may be at a differnet junction though..
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
i hate this road.. its lonely and you have to be brave
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
when everyone else has a crutch in their hands to rely on.. someone to fall back and blame
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
we are but stuck with ourselves and the decisions we make...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
but.. in it's own weird right... doesn't that make us stronger?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i believe on some level it has made me stronger....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
even... a little more insane....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
definitely a little more insane....
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
but nuntheless... stronger
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
with strength comes its own special insanity
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
lol..
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
well said my dear...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
well said...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
lol..
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i suppose that fellow you were looking upon did not return thy stare...?
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
this is not about romantic notions but mere generalizations... because my friend's words about ideal partners made me realize that the people that have travelled alongside me share little similarities
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
and despite... the somewhat..sometimes...catastrophic endings.. there are some sweet memories there
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
but not sweet enough for me to repeat it
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm..
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i see...
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
and if that's the case.. and it is upon what our future relationships are based..
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
then.. what is our destiny?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
heh....
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
so.. what is our destiny?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
we all have the same ending....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
which i can say with certainty....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
the ending we push to the back of our minds...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
Death.....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
and what comes before that...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
i am not sure....
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
therefore.. the alternate destiny we seem to think is predetemined prior to death is but mere distraction?
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
heh...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
a mere distraction...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
like mostly everthing else...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
tv...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
music...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
bleh..
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
bleh....
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
distractions...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
or rather...
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
something to help us past the time...?
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
until we get to that final destination..
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
existentialist thoughts
All Things with Form Eventualy.. Perish.... says:
hmm...?


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She wants it... says:
the end of dat last note on dpwi is kinda glum tho... acceptance as death as our final destination... everything prior a distraction
She wants it... says:
in at the glass as half empty
She wants it... says:
death should be the only thing stopping us from living a very fruitful life... we go through the day and ignore the 98 good things that happened to us, but we're sure to remember the 2 bad things the happened and tend to dwell on that
shelli... teardrop on the fire says:
hmm
She wants it... says:
if we learn to appreciate the good things in our life and try not to dwell on the negative, our lives would be more rewarding