A healthy relationship keeps the doors and windows wide open. Plenty of air is circulating and no one feels trapped. Relationships thrive in this environment. Keep your doors and windows open. If the person is meant to be in your life, all the open doors and windows in the world, will not make them leave. Trust that truth.
So all that I said that I wouldn't do.....apparently I really meant that I would. :(
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"The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them - words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you've said at all or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That's the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller but for want of an understanding listener."
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"The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them - words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you've said at all or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That's the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller but for want of an understanding listener."
Oh the joys of having the house to yourself. It's one of those simple pleasures that those who already live on their own oft forget. However, having once tasted such luxuries and returned *sigh*, I have not forgotten such pleasures and thus I am relishing in it right now.
Nats slept over a couple nights. A couple other friends dropped by during the week to cook & stuff. I had fun.
Other than that. No real post to talk about. My freedom ends Wednesday.
*sad face*
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On a side note, as I returned with Ronique home after her afternoon walk I remembered something that Becky, Nat's lil sister told me. Becks in a random moment of inquiring whether I'm prepared for a hurricane, stated that she wished one who hit Grenada this year. Naturally, I did the automatic adult response whereby you discourage such aspirations and say all the bad things that could happen.
But when I was walking Ronique in, I remembered that when Ivan had hit, it was an adventure to me. I, too, much older than Becky who's a child, was looking forward to a hurricane hitting. I was well armed with my digital camera, checking storm updates constantly, snapping pictures of my neighbours' roofs flying off, chatting on msn with friends asking about what was happening on those parts of the island, up until my roof, too, went. Of course that really didn't hinder my adventurous spirit. It didn't really dawn on me how possible death/injury was possible from flying debris nor the potential magnitude of the ensuing consequences.
Ok, I'm not going to lie. Even afterwards it was still somewhat an adventure to me, with the living by candle light, telling ghost stories, watching the stars at night, bathing in the rain, sharing food with your neighbours... Would I want to relive the experience? The good parts, why not?
The bad parts however... like the crime, the fear, the potential food shortage and politics governing it, the being worried about other storms hitting before we got back up as a nation, the trying to get your house fixed, the trying to get your business fixed, etc etc not so cool.
I conclude, perhaps, I would wish for another hurricane, but only if it were consequence free. But then again, I'm sure if there were no consequences, we'd engage in a lot worse.......right?
Shelli out.
Early night for me....
I just saw the most disturbing vid. I don't even remember how I landed on the video, but I remember seeing a warning about the images being graphic and disturbing. However, while it is graphic - it's nothing that movies haven't desensitized us to already and it's not even as graphic as the very worst of them, e.g., Saw. What was disturbing was the ideas it was pushing.
I know not many people will agree with what I'm about to say. The video is based on the war in Iraq. It has images from bombing the people. Words on screen pushing the idea that the attack is valid, and they are doing God's work. In fact, at the end of the video they say "Either we help you meet your maker...or you can take matters into your own hands."
As I watched it... several thoughts ran through my head. First of all, there are wicked people all over - and you don't have to be Muslim to be wicked. There are wicked Christians too *cough* slavery... *cough* the Crusades... *cough* Well... furthermore, this isn't even about religion...wicked people exist period, regardless. And just as there are wicked amongst us in every group, there are good people too...or those who at the very least, want to be good or have the potential to be but just aren't strong enough to stand up against the masses.
Secondly, I don't believe that all of Iraq is fully supportive of the terrorist movements. I do believe that there must be some innocent people over there... and it's not right to just kill everyone.
Thirdly... remember the Crusades? Destroying the Muslim holy places... Isn't the Jihad just the Crusades in reverse? All those who are saying "those people must not know God or fear God to attack Americans and attack Christians"....what do you think the Muslims were saying about the Christian belief in God?
Lastly... I'm not saying it's right. I don't fully believe terrorists did 9/11. I don't fully trust America either. I mean... there was no weapons of mass destruction to begin with - but that was one of the themes they were pushing. They have technology to see a license plate via satellite.... but they can't find one man that can't survive without a dialysis (Osama Bin Laden)? There's too many questions swimming around that whole thing. The media naturally, as with what they do with every idea they want society to accept, just as with homosexuality (no I'm not homophobic but for the sake of argument) has found ways to incorporate the culture of fear and terrorism into most of their programs from sitcoms to movies. Every where you turn, the media is telling you how you're supposed to feel about Muslims, terrorists, etc... the level of fear and suspicion who're supposed to be experiencing... Who pays the media? Who do they rely on for support...? Oh right.. let's think back to Elections... it all comes back to the governments. Therefore, the people are merely puppets on a string, blindly accepting everything thats being pushed to them. What are the real intentions of the those leading?
I don't support fighting violence with violence... although I heard a quote in the 'A-Team' movie that even Ghandi the pacifist said that in certain situations it is warranted. I don't support just killing people either. But I believe in the world we live in, unfortunately, it's the only thing people seem to understand when the fragility of life starts coming to the forefront with death surrounding. But I also don't believe in placing God in the rationale for killing people either as the video pushes. War isn't God's work as far as I'm concerned... but that's just me...
Check the vid out... tell me what you think?
These are some of the comments on the vid...
I know not many people will agree with what I'm about to say. The video is based on the war in Iraq. It has images from bombing the people. Words on screen pushing the idea that the attack is valid, and they are doing God's work. In fact, at the end of the video they say "Either we help you meet your maker...or you can take matters into your own hands."
As I watched it... several thoughts ran through my head. First of all, there are wicked people all over - and you don't have to be Muslim to be wicked. There are wicked Christians too *cough* slavery... *cough* the Crusades... *cough* Well... furthermore, this isn't even about religion...wicked people exist period, regardless. And just as there are wicked amongst us in every group, there are good people too...or those who at the very least, want to be good or have the potential to be but just aren't strong enough to stand up against the masses.
Secondly, I don't believe that all of Iraq is fully supportive of the terrorist movements. I do believe that there must be some innocent people over there... and it's not right to just kill everyone.
Thirdly... remember the Crusades? Destroying the Muslim holy places... Isn't the Jihad just the Crusades in reverse? All those who are saying "those people must not know God or fear God to attack Americans and attack Christians"....what do you think the Muslims were saying about the Christian belief in God?
Lastly... I'm not saying it's right. I don't fully believe terrorists did 9/11. I don't fully trust America either. I mean... there was no weapons of mass destruction to begin with - but that was one of the themes they were pushing. They have technology to see a license plate via satellite.... but they can't find one man that can't survive without a dialysis (Osama Bin Laden)? There's too many questions swimming around that whole thing. The media naturally, as with what they do with every idea they want society to accept, just as with homosexuality (no I'm not homophobic but for the sake of argument) has found ways to incorporate the culture of fear and terrorism into most of their programs from sitcoms to movies. Every where you turn, the media is telling you how you're supposed to feel about Muslims, terrorists, etc... the level of fear and suspicion who're supposed to be experiencing... Who pays the media? Who do they rely on for support...? Oh right.. let's think back to Elections... it all comes back to the governments. Therefore, the people are merely puppets on a string, blindly accepting everything thats being pushed to them. What are the real intentions of the those leading?
I don't support fighting violence with violence... although I heard a quote in the 'A-Team' movie that even Ghandi the pacifist said that in certain situations it is warranted. I don't support just killing people either. But I believe in the world we live in, unfortunately, it's the only thing people seem to understand when the fragility of life starts coming to the forefront with death surrounding. But I also don't believe in placing God in the rationale for killing people either as the video pushes. War isn't God's work as far as I'm concerned... but that's just me...
Check the vid out... tell me what you think?
These are some of the comments on the vid...
Let me post this again..... FUCK IRAQ! Pull every american out of there and and then drop an atomic bomb and wipe those mutha fuckers off the map. -2 reply
Why dude? What did the Iraqis do to you? They didn't carry out 911, Saudi Arabia & Pakistan did most of the work. Yeah you are right though, together with the women & children, we should destroy all the remains of the Sumerian/Mesopotamian civilization, where writing, the very skill you are using to type your ignorance into words, was invented. Sure, we should destroy the Craddle of Civilization because Bill O'Reilly from Fox says so. +1 -1 reply 
Bill O'Reilly said that?!?!?!? -give me the link, I've gotta see that reply 
I don't give a fuck about them, because they don't give a fuck about us. I've lost too many friends to IED's to give one shit about the Iraqis. They are savages that have no fucking value for human life. Look at how they treat women. SAVAGES. And who gives a shit about where language came from. I used to go to a Bob's Big Boy when I was a kid and it was leveled to make room for an apartment complex so life changes. It's time for theirs to be extinguished. -1 reply How many Iraqis have you met in your life? reply Iraq?..no .....but I knew an Iranian pretty well,. my brother's girlfriend.. she was nice... during one thanksgiving family get together, she was invited..,..and she went ahead and carved the whole turkey,.. I swear, after she was done with her handy knife-work,..not one scrap of meat was left on that damn thing !!! (10 minutes later at most)... never seen anything like it.. -ever since then,..she was known to us as the "terrorist" -lovely story,.huh reply 
yeah lets be retro and use atomic bombs.... thats so 1950s cool man......seriously tho we are far to concerned about collateral damage and civilian deaths..... we could be much harder on them.... much much harder reply
Last night I went to the club. By went to the club, I mean I actually attended a fete, so to speak, not the after work lime or such..... but an actual party. I went to the 'Free Drinks - Deal or no Deal' with a couple friends.
Whatever man... I hope this isn't a prelude to what Carnival is going to look like. *sigh*
Shelli out.
I had fun. I think perhaps I'm getting too old for this though. Despite all the talk I gave my friend Avi about her liking to leave parties around 1-2 am because she gets tired - I found myself feeling slightly tired but I shall blame it on my shoes that were killing my feet, causing me to have to sit down periodically.
There was one glitch in the whole thing. Let's call it... community service. Those who have been following my blog should know what exactly I'm talking about as it's referenced a few posts back. I don't recall being that annoyed for the whole year. It's not like "I'm sorry" really counts for anything anyway... or resolves anything. If you were really sorry then........that's ok. I'm sorry too. Sorry for wasting my precious time.
Now back to greener pastures and a more interesting story.
I was surprised at the music that was played. Normally as Carnival ensues and the date draws closer, I find myself having to brace myself for the soca overdose that the Djs like to drop. Carnival addicts are all YAY, more soca! I, on the other hand, am not that soca enthused. But it was nice mix of dancehall, soca, hip hop/rap, techno, and a lil reggae. Aside from my aching feet, I had fun.
The non-fun part was what happened after the party. A few posts back I wrote about how uncivilized we seem to be as a nation that claims to be developing.
Would you like to see an example of what a civilized nation looks like? No... I'm not talking about the US, because they're not even a poster child for what I'm talking about... The following video is an example of civilized. I encourage you to take that 10 minutes of your life and view it, and see if you don't feel inspired to relocate or at least feel the need to incite some sort of revolution right here.
We civilized folks can't seem to go to a party, have a few drinks, dance to some music, and not try to kill each other after we have our little fun. Seriously. Is that where we are as a nation? I can't go to a party in town, the capital town of Grenada, where the police station is not even a good 15 minutes away from anything, and not fear for my life, and my friends' lives afterwards?
Granted, I wasn't particularly in the direct line of fire. But I shouldn't have to be "keeping out of anyone's way," cowering behind other people and trying to rationalize where is the safest place to go. If I get hit, or someone lashes me, it's just collateral?! That's not something to get vex over..?!
I saw some of my ex-students there last night. Which means, that there were surely people much younger than me in the midst. What if they got hurt too in all this wildness? What if someone of the little fight group managed to hit a really really ignorant person on the sidelines inadvertently and a bigger something develops...? What were they even fighting over? Actually, that's none of my business. Well... Just as the Easter Monday at Bathway... I found out later on today according to Facebook that one of the guys ended up getting killed. He was beaten up and "thrown/fell" <--depends on who's telling the story --> into the water. Before I left I saw one guy get injured about 5 ft. in front of me, that was a different guy. *sigh*
This whole thing is just depressing. I don't care if "de man look fuh he death" or some other drama so. Granted, some of these guys have probably done some wicked things, and maybe their rationale for the fight was not completely implausible. But was right outside of the club where innocent people are..... the time and place to deal with your personal issues? While you're dealing with your "disrespect," everyone else has to be "disrespected"...?
Whatever man... I hope this isn't a prelude to what Carnival is going to look like. *sigh*
Shelli out.
