Don't play with it

Sleep is overwhelming me. I have a delightful post to write on teaching, inspired by a talk with my Lit teacher's wife... it's always so much fun to speak with them... one learns so much.

I'm too sleepy to write it now.. But i will tomorrow.

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First day back at work after my bout of allergies - not too bad. I forgot my medication home... and it feels awful... *shudders* my sore throat that is... i think i'm getting a cough as well... hmm...

I'm off to La La Land...
Shelli out.

Ok so my illness is easing up. I think night is when i feel my worst. Around midday i started feeling better... NOW my lower back ache is returning, as is my headache, as is dizzy spells, as is my skin aches...

I reckon this post shalt not be very long.

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I went to the doctor today. After many extreme hypotheses ranging from West Nile fever to Dengue and all sorts of extremities (much thanks to Google... for making me worry more) it turns out this may all be due to stress, allergies (and the flu). Nothing that can't be cured with sleep, antihistamine and lots of liquids.

MNIB is launching this soup-a-day thing. I tried it. Today was the first day. My taste buds are all on vacation, so all i can taste are the reaalllly strong seasoning and such. Thus, i *think* it tasted not too bad. I'll surely try it again sometime - granted i am in town coincidentally, i want soup, and they still have this soup-a-day endeavour running.

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I've been studying. Better late than never right? I'm actually growing in confidence for this exam. Naturally, i came up with all sorts of ridiculous justification not to do it as well as shifting and allocating of blame in the event of failure. However, this exam is for me. I can totally do this. And like i always say, people have done more with less before... so why not me?

I've been pounding Real Property. It all makes sense now... Just need to get a handle on my cases and i'm good to go.

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With the exception of this post (post # 70) i have 69 posts... hehehe

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Oh and Ames, when and if you read this... remember all is not lost. What does not kill makes you stronger... and every obstacle is a potential opportunity to rise above if work it properly.


This day too shall pass.

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With a grimace ...
Shelli limps away in pain ...
to her bed chamber ...
in hopes of a quick recovery ...

Shelli out.

I'm sick...
i feel absolutely horrid...
as in teeth chattering cold (while dressed particularly warm), as in joints ache, as in skin hurts, as in... i think i have a temperature... as in i have a headache... as in ... i feel oh so weak...

but my classes...

*trimbles* *gets up and closes windows*

Must get better....

I feel awful.... somebody make it stop.

i'm going to snuggle in bed.
good nite.
shelli out.

And so there i sat, submerged to my chin in 2-3 feet deep water, my back to the sun. I smiled to myself. The irony is that i had three epiphanies in that single moment - firstly, it was a good idea to come back into the water. It no longer felt freezing cold. Secondly, most of my grand epiphanies happen on Grand Anse beach. Thirdly, i had my decision.

The water was nice... and calm. It didn't crash against the shore, it was all smooth and gentle movements - like a caress... like a whisper against the sand...

I looked on. After frolic and moments clandestine, there isn't much one can do but sit and look on...

I acknowledged that when i finally decide to rise out of the water, i would be different. I acknowledged that every footstep left a definite footprint walking away... something visual, something tangible, something that can't be ignored.. And every tentative step towards the tree, where my clothes was, was one step closer to the person i am becoming...

Scary, but reassuring at the same time. For once, life is going in the direction it's supposed to. For once....